Sticks and stones

Can’t tell
Why I left
Can’t spell
The words lost
In my dry mouth

Maybe that’s why
I lie to avoid the truth
I cannot comprehend these feelings
Don’t think I possibly could

Changed my writings a while ago
Maybe the sentences do carry weight
Maybe they don’t, I don’t know
Behind flamboyante words I hide
To match how it is on the inside

Can’t get grip on the truest truth
It is buried in your eyes
Can’t let slip any feelings, maybe I should
They remain buried in my bones

Sticks and stones
Won’t get them above the ground
Whatever it is (was) this time
I confront my flawless crime


Tilted towers

And as I stand there
Nailed to holy grounds
I see buildings burning
Towers collapsing
Threatening to destroy what is mine

However, I am fine
Stupid towers won’t infect my soul
No longer, whatever
After all
Whatever ain’t so clever

Found relics of ancient powers
My sole purpose more than ever
To -once more- stand victorious
Amongst tilted towers

Let’s have coffee

Come on
It’s still easy now
Let’s stay in this goal forever

A little bit longer
And I’ll ask you whether
Or not
You’d like to do “stuff” together
I’ll ask you whether
Or not
You’d accept the privilege
Being a friend of mine
Playing mastermind
Whilst everyone is attending math lessons
And maybe
If you’re not a scumbag turd
I’ll ask you whether or not
You want to know my silliest secrets
I’ll tell every last one them
I give you my word

I almost forgot
How easy it was

Move from bed to bed now
Life more like a drama show
In the 5 minute breaks
I remind myself who I’m pretending to be
5 minutes is all it takes
To push myself past point of no return
I drink till I can’t stand
I still have my lessons to learn

And we can talk for hours
Stay up all night
But even a slight
Pause in your thoughts
A delay in who you are
Makes me feel ill
You don’t truly know me
I bet you never will

I guess this is it
Lingering toughts unspoken
Here it ends
The death sentence never to be awoken
We can never be friends

Holy fuck

Pure hot red pain
I’d embrace the taste
Only to sustain
Avoiding the usual copy paste

Fast forward to binge watching series,
Crippling myself with blasphemous thoughts
Every step causing my defeat
On repeat, in the back of my mind

Everytime I rewind
You forget to kiss your knuckles
Before you punch me in the face
And everytime you reach out
Tears covers my once so tidy route

You used to say: “don’t be a blind man”
But I got twisted up on the inside
Every lesson you learned me
Naively swept aside

To open my stitched eyes
I’ll bite through my tongue
I’ll contribute to the chaos
Pay debt for all the stupid things I said

‘cause I’m through finding blame
The memory will soon fade
I’m through crying with self-pity induced shame
That’s a decision that I’ve made

(inspired by the front bottoms)

L. paradoxum

I’m back
Never really left
To be honest

Acid dripping through the ceiling
Into my melting brain
Can’t push away this feeling
Almost turning insane

I wear different sized gloves
Don’t care that much
To be honest

Seek resort in excessive partyhours
in hollow, meaningless words
In wild punk rock showers
In far away, imagined flirts

And although
It may sometimes appear like bogus
Just like the crazy parasite
in the poor snail’s head
You infect my soul and body
Push me to reach the top

To be honest
I don’t mind
I’ll endure forever
You’re the only one of your kind